“Wait for the LORD, and He will make things right.” -Proverbs 20:22
Some of you that just read the title to today’s post got excited thinking that ‘vengeance is yours’…not so! The verse in Hebrews 10:30 says, “Vengeance is Mine, says the Lord…I will repay.”
I just went out to a nice lunch with a dear friend of mine on Sunday after church. The food was great…but the fellowship was wonderful! We both grew up with similar situations. We did have some big differences, but the message conveyed to us as children by one or more of our care-takers, was the same…we were not important, we were unworthy of receiving love from certain people. They did all they could to make our lives miserable!
As we sat and dredged up the ‘old’ stuff-I could feel my anger and resentment rise. I even remember at one point in the conversation saying…”It makes me so mad! I’d just like to pop ’em in the face!” Thinking about that scene later, I was appalled at myself…I thought I had been healed…I was sure that I had forgiven those that caused so much pain in my life; but I find I am still in need of healing. Still needing to search my heart and grant forgiveness to them whether they asked for it or not!
But-I must admit that my heart is not in that place…yet. I want it to be, because their injustices to me gnaw at my peace and happiness; and they…I doubt they even remember me! Some of them are already dead and gone-so I’m the last thing on their minds.
Judgment is for God to meet out-not me. When I want to take care of it myself, I’m assuming that God can’t do it as well as I could. Having that attitude is not showing reverence or respect to God. However, when we make the choice to forgive and give it all to the Lord, we are declaring that He is faithful and Just, and will take care of those that hurt us. And believe me…I’ve seen it over and over again-His justice, His recompense to them will far out-weigh anything we could ever meet out.
For those that see the error of their way and repent-many come back years later and apologize for their actions. THAT is the kind of outcome we should pray for those that have hurt us! That they finally come to a place where they see they need God’s grace and forgiveness!